Straining under tension
Craving the end so near
Almost breaking under
The pressure so feared
The world presses on
Adding more weight
I nearly crack under it
Pushing with all I have
I open my eyes
And the fear no longer seen
Finally it’s anger
As I push it away with sweat… not tears
I roar, scream and shout
And tear my body apart
Sweat replacing tears
Blood seeping into my eyes
But it’s not enough
To pull me down
As the pain increases
So does my will…
To become, all I can be…
A rare as the moments are
That pass me by silently
I suddenly feel a whelm of peace
At the notion of a single … 1
I gaze out at the forest
For of trees and see
A peace in the darkness
A peace I had not seen
The scent of your freedom
Surrounds me, calls me to follow
I scarely realise it
If I hadn’t been watching for it
I watch the ever present night
Masking the day over to night
And step out to the dusk
Awaiting you to guide me silently
I follow you into the forest
The woods so dark and deep
But though it all confuses me
I trust you, undenyingly
I see the darkness surround me
But I smile knowing that you
Will be there at the end, waiting
To envelope me still
Through the gardens I step with bare feet
A hear the rustling of my dress
I look over at a stone garden
To find you there, waiting
In your mind, you say hello
I smile, and return the same
I found you… you guided me
All I knew was, that you belonged here
The people they come
They bustle and busy themselves
I hear them, but want to take you with me
I want you home with me
Silently, your mind says no
For it’s not your place
But that you will always be there
To catch me if I fall, loneliness engulfed
To catch me…
As I willingly fall into you
My spirit joined
To yours
In the distance
The girl says good bye to her family
She hugs them
Cries a little
Then with a short walk
She walks towards the door
Waving… smiling, trying
Good bye
But the family she has
She’s made here
Will not be forgotten
For all, live under, one tree
Her guide continued to walk
And she found a way out
That ultimately
Left her blind
For she couldn’t see
The light
So closed her eyes
And followed… trusting
One day, she felt a touch
Her other hand, held
She looked at her hand
Then up at who it was
The entity smiled, soothingly
She felt suddenly…
… at peace
It all made sense
The entity delighted to know
That she had found
Her own path, seeing light one day
“Why did you not take it?”
The entity asked
“I was afraid…”
She replied, sheepishly
Now her decisions
Left her following a path
That was her guides, chosen
She continued on her path
Holding the guides hand
But she looked at her other hand
And to her surprise, and delight
The entity still held it
“Did you think I’d leave you?” he uttered
The woman smiled
And celebrated
Her heart rejoiced
Unknowingly, as to why
The entity just made her happy
Accepting her … as she was, belonging
So the entity continued
To hold onto her securely
She continued to smile
Resting in the love of that entity
There came a day
As quiet and secret as the night’s mist
Where the entity and the woman
Promised everything
To ensure… that her happiness
Was secure
For that’s all the entity
Ever wanted…
And suddenly, the woman found
Her life purpose was no longer set
For her heart was alive
As the warmth awakened the flow
More to come…
In the midst of finding truth
In the cycle of life found
Feelings of losing heart
Has emerged
Wandering through the dark forest
I had the trees who guided me through
Being friendly and loving
These trees became my family
So to suddenly find my way
And the truth to wander out of the darkness
I suddenly realise
That the trees, are no longer seen
But there will always be
An opportunity to see them again
For my family that they are
And for that, I am thankful, that they were there… for me
So thank you to you all
Ffor always being there for me
You, me, and my family
You are everything… all of you.
Love always… prevails.
The dark forest surrounds her
But deeper into it she goes
For the only way can go
Is the only way she knows
So forward on, into the darkness
Darker and scarier still
The little girl travels
All she wants is to get to a place… familiar
She travels, and walks, cautious
Until she finds a guide
The guide and the little girl
Follow through the forest together…
Until she realises, it’s the wrong way
“This is not the way I want to go” she responds
“How would you know anyway?” the guide questions
As he leaves her… alone again
She cries, in despair
To be alone in the forest
Or guided through a direction
Not the way her heart wished
She met another guide, cautiously
To which, the guide expressed to her
That he would care for her
As long as she followed his direction
So she smiled
And followed the guide
For it was better to be in the darkness
With someone who cared
The girl grew into a woman however
And this is where the story dims
For the woman realised
The path of the guide, was different to hers
She saw a way out
She saw a light out of the forest
“I can see it! Look! It’s there!”
She responded with glee
“That’s not the path for me!”
He sadly muttered…
And she realised something
That her will and goal
Was not to get out of the forest at all
It was to find the guide
And help him… find his path… together
So she turned around
Away from the light only she saw
And held his hand, smiling
And walked through the forest, together
Smiling, safety, the week ahead
No bad dreams or sleepless nights
The world, as it is
Safe, warm and comfortable
The stars aligning once again
For this giver to do her work
The world reaching equilibrium
For her to continue the will
They’re all happy again
It took another to bring a light
To the darkness of what suppose to be
But now that the light is shone
Its realised the giver is me
The world is happy again
So my light stays
Safely, I love it, whole, forever
Keeping it close, for it is the one entity
That gives… to me.
So I give it… my life, love and all…
I… am happy again.
To settle down
A range of options
Finally it’s clear
What needs to happen
But a light of hope
Presented, perfect
Allowing to feel
Human, real
To contribute to the globe
We find our places, ease
Settling for life chosen ways
We find we can’t change without losing … something
A light brings forth
Another life that could be
And the hope I feel
Warm, perfect and needed
Supported
Two ways, but both
Allow this life
To hold on to hope
And keep safe, warm and loved…
Perffect…
A time of fresh feelings
Emotions not felt prior to experience
An awakening sets through
Knowing…
My solace and peace
In something unobtainable
Reality distracted with busy-ness
Smiling, for life is fine
Reaching out every so often
To realise that I breathe, for real
But having to hold it again
When the wheels keep turning
How safe and secure a hold from the house
How provided and secure in this aspect
Yet so much hurt, less the desire
Leads me to a solace absent from reality
To concentrate on the house and what it provides
Is what the world calls to do, for peace
One cannot deny what the eyes and heart desire
To feel human, be loved… to love with no inhibitions
A solace, I feel
In the safety of holding a child
Not here…
But only, when I fly amongst the clouds… free, and on my own
My solace
As I forget
And feel
And close my eyes… and let go of my breath
The clouds are calm today
Pretty, with the Sun shining behind them
What a day, to have spent
Smiling, happy as I am
Even in the midst of turmoil
Around me a world that hurts
A place with sleepless nights
My life seems content and calm
For I’ve realised very quickly
That the aspects of life important
Are those, that produce and give
Love
My one entity
Close and happy
It has been a while but
Finally, a place we reached , beautiful
My connection
So beautiful, loving and pure
We’ve realised
That we won’t lose each other
Finally, my God, my Soul provider
I’ve neglected talking to you
So here I am… for you to touch
And cleanse, my heart, my life
Three aspects, so dear to me
Three entities, so true and clear
I’ve known all along
How precious, you all are to me…
Thank you.
