Unstructured

Parts of me, belong to you
Undeniable, the feelings felt
Pain, distrust, misunderstandings
And ending simply due to missed concepts

So it is to us, love and hate
A message clear in me
To let go of the distrusting cloud
That looms aiding my every decision

To let go of this and move along
Is to open up a path of vulnerability
To let them see, who I am
To let go, of all I hold close to me

But I know, that you will protect me
I trust, that you will be there
For when the time comes, if it ever does
I trust… and will hold on, to your promise

So here I am, letting go of something severe
To not hold on, and peace resting in
What happens now, to what has formed
My mind, heart and soul… confused

Sometimes it seems, that to run would be sane
To start something new, no more mistakes plain
But what I realised so profounding too
What that… I love you…

With all my heart, soul and mind
With my being, my entire unstructured self
I realised, that to lose you…
Would be the end of me

Not just the emotion
Not just the physical
Not just what you give me
But there is something, with us… that no longer exists, if you and I were not to be

To hear the cries
To see the tears
To see the desperation to hold on to the wall

I looked over the wall
To see what was new
But then what did I see
Because all I saw was you

You loving me
You holding me
You… love me

And not until the time
When it nearly stopped, ended
Did I realise, how much
I meant to you

Who I was… to you

I love you….

~ by Belinda on July 26, 2008.